Gains and Losses
26 May 2020
Long time no… see? Read? Email? Anyways, it’s been a grip.
Micah and I have been in quarantine since the second week of March, and being indoors is becoming something that I’m so incredibly used to that once we go outside for groceries or even a walk… it’s so surreal. It’s so crazy to be outside, to see everyone walking around, to see the trees and greenery thrive.
Being inside has given me the time to reflect upon myself and others.
I lost a good friend due to changes within my behavior, I lost my job recently, and I lost a ton of braincells while playing games with friends over Discord.
Before quarantine, I took loss as something extremely negative. But I think now, I’m taking it in stride. I lost a friend and I now have the capabilities to gain new ones, to take the time to get to know others within my niche, to create friendships of sustenance that don’t rely on insulting others, but instead create thought provoking conversations.
I lost my job, but it took me that long to realize that I should scour and look for a new job that aligns more with my career path and within my interests.
My braincells however… it’s okay, I can lose those.
I am starting to associate change as a good thing. Change doesn’t have to be bad, whether it be a change of heart, a change in behavior, or a change in beliefs. There is such thing as good change.
I understand that losing something allows us the opportunity to gain some things, too.
Victories & Moments
💭 Lost a good friend of mine, but I think it’s for the best. Took some time for me to think that some people just grow apart from one another, and that it’s not always bad.
✍🏼 Started writing in my bullet journal again, jotting down my thoughts and feelings, writing daily to-do lists, keeping track of my current habits and the habits I want to create.
🤝 Created new friendships online, and I’m thankful to be able to do so.
🧠 Updated my portfolio. Looking for new jobs within my field in potentially a new location.
👩👧 Started developing my relationship with my mom again after not properly speaking to one another in the last few months.
Things I’ve been indulging in—
📺 Hospital Playlist, Avatar: The Last Airbender
🗣 Talking with friends on Discord.
I hope you all are doing well during this quarantine, and hopefully you’re not going stir crazy and going outside (not social distancing) just because the weather is nice!
All love, stay safe.
— J ♡